i ask you not to care about me, because it hurts.
i really mean, don't say you care.
i tell you to leave me alone, because i'm afraid you will, and if i tell you to, i don't feel abandoned.
really, i'm scared to be alone, and i want you there.
i ask you if you're busy, and when you say you are, i just give a pat answer.
really, i need you and i'm too scared to ask, cause then i'll feel like a bother.
i push you away, because i don't know another way.
really, i want you. i need you.