Friday, December 18, 2009

therapy journal 25

therapy is not going so well. i've gone back to my old defense mechanisms, so we're moving back up to twice a week. DBT is on hold for now, we're not sure what we're doing about it.

had a pretty ok week. of course, that could be cuz i'm avoiding my feelings, and since i don't know what i'm feeling, i'm just assuming it was ok.


  1. mr. a.l. therapist guyDecember 27, 2009 at 2:29 AM

    Where are you? Are you ok? Can you say what its like to not feel anything? What does "nothing" feel like? What r your old defense mechanisms, and why r you going back to them? Is it a response to being "sent" to DBT?

    You probably should just try it and see. If you don't like it, drop out. If you like it, you will want to go more and more.

  2. i'm still here, just got nothing to say.

    i'd rather not go into it...but no, it has nothing to do with DBT.

  3. mr. a. l. therapist guyDecember 27, 2009 at 2:38 AM

    You sound sad :(

  4. mr. a. l. therapist guyDecember 27, 2009 at 2:48 AM

    Then why are you up so late? It's past your bed time, no?

  5. mr. a. l. therapist guyDecember 27, 2009 at 3:09 AM

    Do you know that it was not your fault? No matter what happened? No matter what happens? No matter what it feels like, you are clean as a whistle. Innocent and pure like the fresh snow. Nothing he could do could ever take that away from you. Hashem gave you a pure neshama and no evil perpetrated on you can change that.

  6. got busy, lost track of time. and yeah, i know that.


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