journaling about how nervous i was that they would change their minds about sending me home after i fought with the nurse for two nights in a row.
expressing my joy after going to rounds and discovering that they really were sending me home on monday!
this page was just a fun way to try out my new twistable colored pencils! (thanks kim!)
acrylic paint on a separate sheet of paper, pasted into my journal. journalling of random thoughts, and today i feel.
not much to say on this zentangle...
i slow journalled about some of the reasons i was worried about going home. would you believe how much slow journalling has grown on me?
on this page, i used watercolors to paint the page, then journalled my random thoughts over it, today i feel, and reasons why i'm scared to go home.
this page of slow journalling was to remind me that not only is it normal to be nervous about the changes about to take place, but it's ok to be nervous, and that even though i'm nervous, i'll be ok.
for this page, i painted squares with my watercolors, and then then journalled all over it. my journalling included: things i've gained during my stay, how i feel today, and random thoughts about my day.
"You'll find a rainbow, shining at the edge of every cloud...if you just keep on believing, there's a dream that's heading right your way..." (i changed the words of this quote a little bit, to make it fit what i was feeling)
this phrase came from my friend ER, the first time i was majorly suicidal. it's "impossible" with an apostrophe and a space.
this page is a combination of journaling, today i feel, and as usual, CBT notes.
for this page, i painted a separate sheet of paper with acrylics, and when it was dry, tore it up and pasted it randomly on the page. the top was journaling, the bottom was "today i feel"
"laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion. i myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward. ~kurt vonnegut
"repetion is the key, sing this over and over, you'll feel it finally" ~london girls chior
this page is, like yesterday's, a combination of regular journaling, CBT notes, and how i feel today.
"Yet one thing gives me comfort, it's all that I have left, I know that God in heaven won't forget" ~Abie Rotenberg, Memories
this page was just a random art page, playing around with my erasable twistables.
i used crayons to write the words here, then painted over it in watercolors.
slow journaling is growing on me...
this page was really hard for me to do, but was really helpful. first, I wrote the words "my positive thoughts about men on unit" in puff paint, and waited for it to dry. then i wrote all my negative thoughts about the male staff all over the page, and painted over it, so you can hardly tell the words are there, even if you look really closely. when that was dry, i wrote all my reframes (thanks CBT!) on top. they can't be read in the photo, so here they are:
words on the top one:
sorry, no post for day one, i didn't journal that day. i was too overwhelmed.
writing the words again down here, cuz you can't see them clearly in either picture i took.
i don't think slow journaling is for me, but i might try it again...this is what came out. i'm so frustrated with myself and my process right now...
watercolors. i'm so sick just thinking of this, i'll probably take it down, and destroy the paper copy soon, if i have the guts to...would you believe it takes more guts for me to destroy my artwork than it does to post it here?
