It's been a while....

It's been a while since I've written here, I wonder if anyone is still reading this!

Things have changed so much in my life over the past few months, it's hard to believe this is me! Where to start....how to get you all up to date on where I'm up to, without revealing my identity...this is hard work!

I know longer live in the Sheep household! I, Little Sheep, now live somewhere else! Me! You're reading right! No more Sheep parents and siblings on a daily basis, only when I fit them into my schedule. Not that I don't love them and all, but it's definitely a new stage in my life!

I'm finishing TF-CBT! This week is my final session with my therapist. We're saying goodbye! And wait til I post pictures of my goodbye present to her...I can't wait til I finish it!

Although it wasn't my original plan, I am continuing therapy over the next few months. I'm starting with a totally new type of therapy though-art and sandtray therapy! This is going to be a whole new experience for me!

Look out for backdated posts over the next few weeks, as I catch you up on (some of) my 2011 art journal!

being home

my first few days at home were AWESOME! i'm happy to be back with my therapist. the social worker coming to visit me at home seems pretty ok. and of course, i've been keeping busy with my new therapy project-writing a book! i'm glad i gave up the idea of publishing my poetry and went for an informational book about art instead, it's so much more productive!

Reasons Why I Love My Body

this one was really hard to do, i had a lot of help! thanks guys! ;-) the edges are a little cut off, i hope you can read them...(good luck trying!)

Celebrate Your Strength III

thanks so much to all my friends who helped me with this...you know who you are!

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this week i....

~went to a whole bunch of shiurim

~worked every work day

~ate 2-3 meals most days

~spoke to four rabbis without freaking out

~went for therapy once

~remembered my meds and omega 3s most days

~went away for shabbos

~showered three days in a row

~got a small massage without freaking out

~visited 2 friends, spent shabbos with a whole bunch ;-)

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this week i...

~ate breakfast every day

~worked almost every day

~went to a family simcha

~helped my sister in law

~visited two friends

~took omega 3 most days

~went to the psychiatrist

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this week i...

~visited with three friends

~helped a friend

~helped my sister

~said shema every night

~started taking omega 3 pills-and remembered them every day

~cooked for shabbos

~did laundry for my family

~visited with my sisters in law and my cousins

~ate at least two meals most days

~spent time with my siblings

have a great week everyone!

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haven't done one of these in a while. i'm going to do this past week, as best as i can from memory...after that, i'll hopefully start getting better about writing things down.

~went to a family simcha

~went to therapy twice

~made my therapist proud (that deserves its own post, but...)

~spent shabbos with *me*

~went for ice cream with *me* and shef

~showered at *me*'s house :-)

~worked three days

~said shema almost every night

~called my friend in the hospital

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sorry it's been so long...

these past two weeks i...

~davened some days

~said modeh ani and shema every day

~went for therapy a whole buncha times

~babysat jack's daughter

~ate two meals a whole buncha times

~did a lot of cooking

~went to shul a buncha times

~went to a shiur

~spent time with shef and another two friends

~had a lot of family time

~took the train alone

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this week i...

remembered modeh ani and shema every day

~davened almost every day

~visited some relatives

~went to work all workdays

~took my niece for a walk

~remembered my meds every day

~helped my aunt

~went for a walk with my sister twice

~was in bed before midnight almost every day

~took a two hour bus ride alone

~reached 22 days of no SI (sorry, haven't had a chance to update my ticker)

~decorated my sukkah

~ate at least two meals most days

~read my CBT book

~cooked for yom tov

~managed without therapy while my therapist was away

~got back in touch with a long lost friend

~did some work for my tired brother ;-)

sorry i haven't been posting much. B"H, i haven't had much inspiration...hopefully, as i get better, i'll get inspired to write more nice things. meanwhile...enjoy the positive posts!

have a wonderful yom tov!

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this week i...

~said modeh ani and shema every day

~remembered my meds every day

~davened every day

~completed two weeks of no SI

~spent time with five friends

~worked every day

~went to the mall with my sisters and spent other time with them

~visited my sister in law

~babysat my nephew

~went to four shiurim

~helped around the house

~went for therapy

~washed my own hair

...next week, even better!

i'm posting this early cause i'm going away for shabbos...so it's not really a complete list

have a wonderful shabbos everyone!

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this week i...

~remembered modeh ani and shema every day

~remembered my meds every day

~was in bed before midnight most days

~worked monday to thursday

~went to two shiurim

~ate at least two meals every day besides one

~had the coolest therapy session i've had in a really long time

~davened almost every day

~went to a family simcha

~visited with shef :)

~reached 8 days of no SI

~cleaned for Y"T

~cooked and baked for Y"T

~waited up for my sister to get home even though i was exhausted

...next YEAR, even better!!

Kesiva vechasima tova everyone. thanks so much for all your support this year!

~LS~

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this week i...

~remembered my meds

~davened three days

~said modeh ani and shema every day

~was in bed by midnight every day

~cleaned the house and cooked for shabbos

~ate two meals most days

~worked every day

~visited with friends twice

~washed my own hair twice

~went for therapy twice

~put up a new SI counter :)

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sorry i'm late!

this week (including shabbos) i:

~remembered modeh ani and shema most days

~remembered meds most days

~davened some days

~finished my summer job

~had ice cream with my sister

~spent shabbos with shef

~went out with a friend

~caught up with two friends

~went to a shiur

~went for therapy

~washed my own hair twice

~cleaned my dining room and did laundry

next week, even better!

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i didn't write at all this week, so this is entirely from memory...

this week i...

~davened some days

~worked four days

~held jack's baby daughter at a family simcha without freaking out

~had two family simchos

~visited with shef

~took my sisters on a trip

~visited with a friend

~worked on my niece's scrapbook

~visited my sis in law

~washed my own hair and stayed grounded while doing it twice, three showers

~said modeh ani and shema every day

~started on a new once a week med, dropped one daily med, and remembered all meds every day

~cleaned my kitchen

next week, even better!

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i was so busy this past week, i didn't have time to write everything down, so it's gonna be a bit on the short side, sorry everyone. but here goes:

this week i...

~said modeh ani every day, shema every day, and davened some days

~went for therapy once, and the psychiatrist once

~remembered my meds every day

~had two really successful showers :)

~went to work four days (my max)

~had two meals most days

~went out for ice cream with a friend

~made challah, did laundry, cleaned my kitchen

~had a friend for (last) shabbos

this week, even better!

shower VI (i think)

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the last two weeks i...

~remembered modeh ani every day

~remembered my meds almost every day

~davened every day besides one

~went to a shiur almost every day

~ate three meals almost every day

~visited with seven friends on eight seperate occasions, and visited with five relatives/families of relatives on nine separate occasions

~went to a wedding and a bris

~reached 20 days SI free and counting

~went out with my mother and sister and almost every day

~went out with mrs. n almost every day

~got my hair done three times, and two manicures

~spent time with jack's kids without freaking out

~babysat my nieces

~played games with my siblings and mother a whole bunch of times

~helped a friend

~worked on my niece's scrapbook

~showered in someone else's house without freaking out

~cleaned my house

~packed for and unpacked from vacation

next week, even better!!

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before i start...

i'm going on vacation for two weeks, so this will be my last post til i get back, unless i happen to get internet access at some point. i don't expect to though. don't miss me too much!

i wasn't so good about writing things down this week, but here goes:

this week i...

~had a friend over twice

~remembered modeh ani and shema every day

~went to work three days (on time all three)

~went for therapy twice

~remembered my meds every day

~fasted tish'a b'av!! (i almost never fast)

~went out for ice cream with *me*

~didn't freak out when i ended up alone in an elevator with a man

~told my therapist when i was triggered in session, and then grounded myself

~got a manicure and my hair done without freaking out-AND didn't get told to relax even once by the manicurist!

~ate more than one meal a few times

see you in two weeks with a REALLY long positive post!!

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this week i...

~said modeh ani and shema almost every day

~davened four days

~ate three meals two days, and two meals two days

~visited a (far away) friend (thanks friend) with a friend (double thanks!! hm, hm, went the little green frog...)

~went for therapy twice

~remembered my meds every day

~visited two friends

~went walking with a friend

~went to a bris

~went to work on time three days, and a bit late one day

~cleaned my kitchen and did shopping for my mother

...next week, even better!