shower I

slowly
layer by layer
shirt-shell-bra
skirt-slip-tights
underwear

water pours
drip by drip
soft and gentle
coarse and rough
in a shower near

i look around
and shake in fear

scared

scared to live
scared to die
scared of pain
of lows and highs

scared of dark,
day and night
of me of you
of him of light

to be asleep
to be awake
of being real
of being fake