Sunday, June 15, 2008

Hands Head Heart

in the room
the door is shut
locked up real tight

on my body
though no one is there
i talk to myself:

is no one here
put your hand there
it's MY hand touching me

even with this
sweet little talking to
i cannot convince myself that

am safe here
in my own room
and he's far away now

he can't come
that it's not his
hands on my arms and

it's not his fingers
tickling my stomach 'til
it tingles with spidery sensations

it's not him
causing pain down there
i should know i'm safe

greatest of distances
is the one that
travels from head to heart


  1. oysh, your story makes me so sad, I feel for you so much, I hope you are better now and I wish this all hadn't happened to you!

    Good Luck!

  2. my story's not over yet...i still have quite a long way to go...

    but, just out of curiousity, how did you come across my sad and ugly blog?

  3. I don't want to intrude, so I don't know if my curiosity is getting ahead of myself. But I can't help asking...

    You say it's not over yet, meaning that your brother is still abusing you? If so, then there's no way to get out of your house? did you tell people?

    If you mean that it's not over yet because of the after affects of what it has caused, then that I can understand. I can imagine how troubling it must be. I even had a hard time falling asleep last night after reading your story. Perhaps therapy can make it better?

    I came across your blog from a comment you left on corner point's blog. I was subscribed to the comments, so I got an e-mail that a new comment appeared, I clicked on "little sheep" and came here.

  4. i should've thought of that myself-i recognised "the babysitter" from corner point's blog! sometimes, i'm a little dense...

    what i meant by my story's not over yet is that i haven't finished posting what i've written so far-i've been backdating things, so it can be an honest reading-i didn't write all this in just 2008, although most of it i did...and that the healing journey is long...very, very long!

  5. LittleSheep: that's ok, I'm slow too sometimes.

    ahh I see what you mean. I hope it helps the healing by writing it down and getting it out of your system.

    Good Luck with the healing, you seem strong and capable of being able to make a complete recovery and live a healthy life!


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