getting ready

sitting and waiting for my turn to go in
do you even know the pain i am in?
the pain that i'm feeling is so very real
(just like my body, i know it's real!)
so so scared that someone will touch me
even though i know it'll only be me
been pushing this off for hours and hours
but no more pushing off at this late hour
will i find someone to be on the phone while i shower
since i can't be alone in the shower?

i'm trying, i'm trying to get ready...
but will i ever really be ready?

(prequal to showers, showers II, & showers III)