Three Months

It's been a while since I posted. Here's some of what's been going on:

After three weeks in the hospital over Purim, I'm on a total of five medications. My family lovingly makes fun of the number of pills that adds up to (14).

Therapy twice a week is really hard work. I currently know of 16 parts (also known as alters) in my DID system. Plus one...thing...we're not sure what it is. As always, I owe my therapist an insane amount of money, and accept all donations. For information on how to donate, email me.

I'm going to be on the move again. I need a new place to live. I hope I'll find one really soon, I don't want to have to permanently move back into my parents house. We'll see what happens with that.

I hope to be back more often, but in the meantime, follow me on twitter! @sheffele

Pill factory

Medicine is a funny thing
It helps me to feel better
I follow the instructions
Exactly to the letter

Pink and blue and yellow
White and two toned blue
What color are the pills
Your doctor gives to you?

Sometimes one is all I need
So one is all I take
But bedtime comes the numbers
Twelve make no mistake.

Count the pills so carefully
This one three and this one two
This one four and this one one
How many pills for you?

Waves

Waves of exhaustion
Wash over me
Long before bedtime
So I medicate earlier
Every day
In the hopes of maybe
Getting a good nights rest
And waking up rested
Tomorrow morning
And the wave
Washes over
Again

DID poem-hospital assignment

DID

what's wrong with

me

lots and lots

of

parts and stuff

singing

inside my head

I

can't even hear what's

said

anger, sadness, hurt and

pain

split in parts inside my

brain

life's more fun but

also

a doozie-when Tired takes over, I feel

snoozie

little ones, big ones, in

betweens

to me this is what

DID

means.

Overheard

On the bus to therapy:

"Please stop ringing the bell [so much]. If you like it so much, I'll buy you one for Christmas."~very polite but annoyed bus driver, after the string was pulled ten times while the bus was stopped letting people on and off