Wednesday, February 11, 2009


am i so dense
that i cannot see
what everyone else
sees in me?

am i so stupid
cuz i don't know
how all this work
will help me grow?

am i so dumb
that i keep
staying awake
when i should sleep?

i'm not sure what i'm trying to say here. which is why it makes no sense. cuz if i don't know what i'm trying to say, why would anyone else? whatever.


  1. What are you doing on regular days? School? Any activities?

  2. 1. It makes sense enough.
    2. It's not stupidity, it's subjectivity. Everyone has it to some degree. It's not a bad thing, it's part of life.

  3. It makes sense to me, LS. You are tired, and caught in a vicious cycle. I'm sorry! :(
    And how many times do I need to tell you: don't insult me in my choice of friends!

  4. bts-nothing really.

    shef i-oh. well i don't like it.

    me-how many times do i have to tell you that it you don't like me insulting your choice of friends, you shouldn't read my writing? or my emails? or my texts? or my IMs?

  5. But I like em, LS! I like you! Why can't you accept that? (Not to mention, I don't think I would ever be able to delete a text without reading it...jk)

  6. LS, so let me ask what are you doing during these days? May be I missed something in previous posts, but I don't remember you mentioning this topic.

  7. me-we can argue this out on a less public forum

    bts-i don't mention it because there's basically nothing to mention.

  8. Then I'll request you to explain how having no activities during the day, that could drag your mind from your pain very far and for long time, won't add more than any of medications you have taken in past couple of year and all of those therapist visits that profited doctor but didn't help you much. Please.

  9. I'm with dude. TV, video games, fb games, online games, etc. If you're not getting your mind off of things, then you'll keep thinking of everything that's negative and the more you think about it the worse it'll seem.


c'mon, i know you're reading this! what do you think?