my life, poetry, and art
You wanted plenty... we don't always get what we want... But those were really four and a half (last time I checked - probably ended up being more) days to remember! I'm really happy for you for getting those. Keep on raising the bar!
I know this is not what you want to hear... but I have to let it out..."If you believe that you can damage, then believe that you can fix. If you believe that you can harm, then believe that you can heal." ~Rebbe Nachman of BreslovConversely, if only G-d can fix, then the problem is His too and you can't blame yourself. You have a real catch-22 here. Sorry! ;-)
Wow 4 and 1/2 days that's great :).That's great progress.Aba (of 4)
o.k. i'm gonna get really nasty here...bet ya' know who it's coming from....nobody else would be so 'bitchy'shut up girl!!!four and a half days-and you beat yourself up? you say- quote: "i guess i didn't want it badly enough..." well, first stop guessing when you know the truth...and second- honey, you wouldn't give it a minute if you didn't want it badly enough!!! common friend, give yourself credit where credit is due....and remember -IT'S A PROCESS!! one minute at a time- each minute is a brick.....four and a half days.... that makes for a lot of bricks...good strong ones... look back...see what you've accomplished....pat yourself on the back....and then, catch your breath....and continue building...it's your life you're constructing here, dear, build with love-will ya'p.s. you're doing great..take it from one who knows...you have what to be proud of...
shef and aba...i'll get back to you.now miss anonymous...yeah. i know who it's coming from. and in public, i try to keep it nice. !@#$%^&*()_ love you too. talk to you. after my...uh...shower?
Just keep in mind, maybe this wasn't the week for you to make it to 5. Maybe you need to make it to the 4½ threshold first. And after that, you're ready to climb to 5. (If you're interested, read up on the various strategies that climbers use when scaling the world's most challenging mountains -- there are all sorts, and often the strategies are forced to change mid-climb).My feeling in general in life is not to put too much emphasis on arbitrary deadlines or milestones. The direction in which you're traveling is ultimately more important than a particular milestone. And the desire for progress is ultimately more important than even that. It's always a hard balance...
c'mon, i know you're reading this! what do you think?