stupid
freakin
messed up
me
really
doesn't
want to
be
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
spring/pesachtime
i hate this time of year. hate, hate, hate it. if i'm acting weird, or spacing out on you, or freaking out from nothing and everything, or not making sense, or rambling, or anything to any extreme, it's cuz it's almost pesach. this year, he's not coming for pesach at all. except maybe one day of chol hamoed. but why would anyone know that yet? why would anyone think that maybe little sheep has to reserve her friends in advance for that day, or there's no gauruntee that she'll have someone to be with when he comes? how silly of me to think that it makes a difference to him. doesn't help that his wife is due in like two months. and whatever. yeah, it's almost pesach. did i ever mention that i hate pesach?
Monday, March 30, 2009
goals IV
decided to get back into things...here goes
this week i will...
~be out of the house by nine every day (thanks to mrs. g...)
~eat two meals every day
~when i feel the need to hurt myself, first look at the 25 things to do first list. (and hopefully try some of them. but i'm not making any promises on that part)
~write a positive post on friday (no promises for any other day...)
~write down what i accomplished every day (thanks to rabbi l...)
~try not to beat myself up if i don't manage to do all this
this week i will...
~be out of the house by nine every day (thanks to mrs. g...)
~eat two meals every day
~when i feel the need to hurt myself, first look at the 25 things to do first list. (and hopefully try some of them. but i'm not making any promises on that part)
~write a positive post on friday (no promises for any other day...)
~write down what i accomplished every day (thanks to rabbi l...)
~try not to beat myself up if i don't manage to do all this
Saturday, March 28, 2009
childhood games
we used to play together, you and i.
did you ever think that games i played were weird?
do we even have the same memories of the games we played?
when i think of playing lego with you in my living room,
i don't picture myself moving around the mentchies...or building...
*too embarrassed to say what i really picture...*
when i think of playing with you in the downstairs bedroom,
(remember when it was big?)...
*too embarrassed to say what i really see*
do you remember it too?
this is not talking about jack. this is actually speaking to a real, good friend, who i hope is reading this. shabbos brings back interesting memories! what do you remember, friend? (you commented here)
did you ever think that games i played were weird?
do we even have the same memories of the games we played?
when i think of playing lego with you in my living room,
i don't picture myself moving around the mentchies...or building...
*too embarrassed to say what i really picture...*
when i think of playing with you in the downstairs bedroom,
(remember when it was big?)...
*too embarrassed to say what i really see*
do you remember it too?
this is not talking about jack. this is actually speaking to a real, good friend, who i hope is reading this. shabbos brings back interesting memories! what do you remember, friend? (you commented here)
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