my path

one step forward
ten steps back,
when will i get
the courage i lack?

showered myself
for so many years,
and yet now i
tremble in fear

how many years
did i sleep through the night
yet now i wake up
in the middle, filled with fright

used to need my room to be
pitch black at night in bed
yet now i must have a light
darkness around me i dread

my short term memory
was once really great
now faces and names...
uh, what was i gonna write?

one step forward,
ten steps back,
when will i get
the courage i lack?