therapy has never been on my list of favorite ways to spend an evening. is it really on anyones? well, maybe on a therapist's list.
despite this, i go. cuz it's the right thing to do. and cuz it'll kill my mother if i give up, and she doesn't deserve to be killed for being the best mother out there.
this latest therapy is causing more problems than that though. therapy, i don't like, but i can put up with. but travelling for more than half an hour to go for therapy? it's just pushing me to my limits. and besides for the time...
it's not walking.
i have two options:
take the train, or get a ride.
now, if you've read my post triggers you know that i really don't like public transportation. it creeps me out. the crowds-ohmygodisthatsomeonetouchingmegetmeoutofhererightnow!!! the advertisements-ididnotjustseethat.really,ididn't. everything about them. sometimes, if i'm not travelling too far, and i have someone with me, i can handle it. but to be on the train for an HOUR???? it usually leaves me in a sort of panic for a while after.
now, the second option...technically speaking, this should be ideal, right? no crowds, no trains...safe. or it would be. if i wasn't terrified of one place we have to pass on the way...