two ways

there are two ways to know
if i'm feeling really sad
if i think everything is awful,
and scary, sick and bad:
if i get really quiet,
and do not write for days...
or when you see me
the writing crazy way
when life is doing really well,
and everything is fine
you won't catch me at a keyboard
typing out a rhyme
so it should come as no surprise
if you hear i'm locked up, or dead
with all the sick and messed up thoughts
running through my head.


i'm sorry everyone.

(p.s. i'm not making any plans to disappear yet.
just feeling very, very low and hopeless.
i'm trying not to let it come down to death,
but there's no telling how (un)successful i'll be)