Friday, March 27, 2009

positive post II

this week i...

~had an enjoyable guest for shabbos (thanks shef! ;)

~went to a simcha without panicking (it helped that he didn't come!)

~went out to eat with my mother

~went to a shiur with a friend

~showered on my own, no phone :)

~visited my aunt and cousins

~ate two meals (four days)

~went walking with my father (two days)

~had a friend over (thanks friend! :) )

~went to a party (thanks friend! :) )

~finished cleaning my room for pesach

15 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing it brings a smile to my face when I hear good news :)
    Good Shabbos,
    Aba

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  2. You forgot to mention going to sleep early- not on phone!

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  3. aba-IY"H, every friday! have a great shabbos!

    *me*-what night did i go to sleep early?! i have no recollection of that happening. but not on the phone...how many nights was it? two?

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  4. oohh, la la....
    not bad for a week....
    or is saying that gonna make you too proud and scared???

    Please refere back to my last weeks warning....i have no energy to say anything now...nothing positive, that is...but i still care about you and your progress...

    keep marching, dear...i'll catch up...eventually...hopefully...

    'tova'

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  5. Wow, what a great week! It makes mine seem so wimpy :-P

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  6. tova and shef-my week wasn't nearly as good as it looks in a post. between all those things, i messed up. and messed up again. and again. and again.

    so tova, don't worry. it's not gonna make me any more scared than i already am...

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  7. hey dear,
    why the negativity?
    the point of posting is to be able to see the good even when it doesn't look or feel that way at all...
    it's a powerful tool.
    it takes a special kind of courage to be able to move the hardships aside and focus on what's to be cherished....

    your steps may seem small and insignicant, but they move you along on your journey nevertheless....

    have a nice weekend...
    'tova'

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  8. tova, maybe i just don't have that courage right now. i'm trying to, but i'm not being so successful at it. so i spend my week writing down all the dumb things i do. yeah, i know for me they're not dumb, and it takes a lot for me to do them, and all that la-dee-da stuff. so what? does it make them any less dumb? NO! they're still stupid things. i'm too embarrassed to post some of the stuff i write down in my notebook as accomplishments, so i leave them out. IT'S DUMB, DUMB, DUMB!! no normal person my age would be proud of half the things i post!

    and i don't call it being negative. i call it being realistic. that however amazing it is that i "accomplished" all these things over the last week, it's still DUMB!!

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  9. well, dear, i guess we just see things differently....and that's ok too...

    see, stupid and dumb...don't do it for me...
    we're each in our own place and what may seem dumb and stupid to you may not seem dumb and stupid to me....
    you need to look at it perspectively...

    embarrassed?? no way...PROUD...oh yeah...
    see it for what it is...and i disagree with the 'realistic' part.
    hate to break it to you, but you are being 'good ol' NEGATIVE' and you need to be kinder to yourself...

    and btw, if you judge 'yourself' so harshly, do you judge 'me' too??? just wondering..........

    'tova'

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  10. tova, dear, i can judge myself because i know what i'm doing, thinking, and feeling at any given moment. or at least i think i do. maybe not the feeling part. you on the other hand...who am i to judge?

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  11. just so you know,

    one of the most valuable lessons i've learned in my healing process was that until you don't learn to stop judging and be more compassionate to yourself....it is impossible not to judge or to have true compassion for others...

    it's either a two way or a 'no way...'

    'tova'

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  12. you're giving me what to think about, tova. a lot to think about. i still don't think i judge most people though. i'm not saying i never judge, just that i'm a lot more careful about judging others than myself. and i can't think of a time when i judged you.

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  13. yeah,
    i used to think so too...

    then i learned that you don't have to work so hard('to be careful') at not judging others when it comes naturally to you...

    natural comes from within...
    it comes from your 'self'...

    did you judge me? not intentionally...but the way you judge yourself...actually makes me wonder...

    please don't forget...been there, done that, still doin' it...

    so, i'm not judging where you're at. i'm just putting it out for you to see...the way i see it...that's all...

    thanks for your kind e-mail...i can use a bit of kindness these days...

    'tova'

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  14. It was Monday and thursday night, and yes- it was only two nights but it's definately progress. And good for you bout the shower! :-)

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  15. tova-i'm sure there's something i should be saying back to you, i just can't think of it right now. i'll get back to you when i do...

    *me*-those were the two nights i went to sleep myself, or when i went to sleep early, or both, or neither, or what? *confused...*

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c'mon, i know you're reading this! what do you think?