I should

I should lie down
and go to sleep
but up my arms
and back spiders creep.

I should lie down
and rest my head
but thoughts whirl
inside, spinning instead.

i should lie down
and close my eyes
but who knows what
I'll see inside?

I should lie down
let my pencil drop
but who knows when
my mind will stop?

I should lie down
breathing slowly and soft
but when does that ever
happen? not oft!

I should lie down
my teddy clutch
but I berate myself
for needing this crutch...

I should lie down
and shut off my phone
but then I'll feel
so utterly alone.

I should lie down
and go to sleep...
but up my arms
and back spiders creep.